Life Just Works Out
So I know you haven’t heard from me in awhile and that is purely because my life has changed drastically, and don’t worry because it is all for the better...
Five months ago, I was a completely different person than I am today. Still the same on the inside and out, but I view things a lot differently now. I have always been a huge believer that life happens for a reason, and you may never know that reason, or you may just figure it out a lot later, but whatever the reason is, it has a purpose in your life. And really these past few weeks have made that so much clearer to me.
Last year was a rough one for me. Living at home, being rejected from my dream job many times, not knowing what my purpose was in life, and I mean no one really ever does know their purpose in life, but as a 23 year old it seemed much more important that I did. I was confused and didn’t know which direction I wanted to take my life in. There was no one telling me what to do and I basically had a wide-open road and I had to pick where it went.
At the time I believed that the road had only one direction and one path, and it took me a long time to realize that your road is whatever you want it to be. It can have as many stops, turns, and circles as you want. You are the driver and you control where you want to go.
When I was in the midst of trying to figure my life out, I couldn’t understand this. I thought that once I picked a direction, I was committed and that was it. That thought was so daunting that it made my decisions that much more overwhelming and that much harder to make, because I thought they meant so much more than they should have. Finding a job seemed like an even more horrible task than it already was because I had to now pick a city, an industry, and a company all in one decision. I was putting so much pressure on myself to get it right; that I didn’t really have any faith in life that it would just work out.
I am not saying that you should just sit back and let life takeover for you, but I am saying that when you are in the midst of stress that you should have a little more faith that things will all be ok. Five months ago I left a job because it no longer made me happy, I was living at home, I didn’t know what city to live in, and I couldn’t clearly see a future. I was majorly overwhelmed and life was throwing too many things at me at once.
Today, I have a job I absolutely love, I am moving out, and even though I can’t see my future (which no one can) I have more faith that it will all just work out, with hard work that is. I have my job today for a reason, and I didn’t get all those other jobs and move to another city for a reason, and day-by-day I learn those reasons and smile to myself and my trust in life grows.
Everything really does happen all at once, and it is really hard to process when you are in the moment. It has taken me awhile to let this all sink in and that is because when your life is changing drastically around, you don’t have the mind space to understand why those things are happening. You are in the mindset to just get through it.
However, when you are happy and settled is when your brain starts to appreciate and comprehend why life just took you on a rollercoaster of a ride. I am still processing my ride of a year but I firmly believe I am meant to be where I am today, doing what I am doing, with the people in my life.
Trust your life.
